★Bahagiamu Deritaku.
Wednesday, 27 March 2013 // 0 comment[s]
In the name of Allah The Most merciful and The Most Gracious
Today I new I think stupidity. Feel stupid because like someone who was not like me. A men who already have someone else. Never going to appreciate my feelings on him for several years. Another stupid when I never realized that I should throw away and forget that I'm feeling. I punished my own heart. Then, I still can be a good friend to him. Can hear his problem. But I realized I needed only when him has no friends to talk to. And obviously, I do it 'muka selamba', can pretender that I do not feel hurt when him tell a story about him girlfriend. I could still laughing though in my heart felt extreme pain. Allah, why do you let these feelings exist in my little heart? Do I feel pain and suffer? Why so heavy test you gave to me? please. If him was mine, then you guard him for me. Open his heart to me that love him because Allah. But if he is not mine, you take off my feelings on it. You strengthen me to forget it. You give me the strength to push away her shadow from my life. Please, make me strength.
Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah urusanku di Kulliyah. Kau permudahkanlah aku untuk mencari ilmumu. Kau permudahkanlah aku untuk menghafal ayat ayat sucimu. Kau berikanlah kejayaan kepadaku dalam Sijil Tinggi agama yang aku ambil ini. Berikanlah keberkatan kepadaku. berikanlah kekuatan dan semangat kepadaku. Amin '
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